digital_dive | third upgrade [Accidental Audio/Frontdated to late at night.]

[The audio clicks on. At first there is just the sound of someone walking through grass but then the music kicks in.]

Every single night
The same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight
Still I always feel
This strange estrangement
Nothing here is real
Nothing here is right.

[The sounds of a scuffle begin.]

I've been making shows of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I've been
Going through the motions [The sound of something landing hard and the scuffle noise stops. Then there's the sound of a gun being cocked.]
Walking through the part
Nothing seems to penetrate my... [The shotgun fires.]
heart!

I was always brave
And kind of righteous
Now I find I'm wavering [More scuffling.]
Crawl out of you grave
You find this fight just
Doesn't mean a thing

He ain't got that swing! [A loud thud.]

Thanks for noticing. [Then in three part harmony.]

He does pretty well with fiends from hell
But lately we can tell
That he's just
Going through the motions [A small rustling sound and then a soft whirling sound.]
Faking it somehow

He's not even half the boy he...oowh. [Thud.]

Will I stay this way forever
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor

[A sweet and sexy female voice.]
How can I repay-

-Whatever.
I dont want to be
Going through the motions
Losing all my drive
I cant even see if this is really me
And I just want to be... [Another shotgun blast and a thud.]
alive!

[There's a silence after the song and the Lombax clears his throat before the audio shuts off.]

((OOC: Roles are as follows; Ratchet, Thug 1, Thugs 1, 2, and 3 singing in harmony, Thug 3, Sexy victim girl.

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[Well... that doesn't sound very good... and why the hell is Ratchet singing anyway?!

Oh. Right. Virus.

Okay, that aside, what the hell is he doing, and why does it worry Rin so much?]

... oi. Ratchet. Where are you?

Just out and about. Nowhere special.

Didn't sound like "nowhere special".

It was just some thugs trying to harm this girl. I saved her while singing. It wasn't anything special.

Again, that song didn't sound like "nothing". The hell is with you lately, man?

And I say it is nothing. Stupid song is all. And what do you mean what's with me lately? Nothing is "with me" lately.

"Nothing, nothing" you keep sayin' it's nothing when even I can see you're obviously pissed off about something! You've been goin' out at weird hours, comin' home at even weirder hours, and last time I tried to make you bento you said "I'm not hungry."

How could you not be hungry, your fridge is practically empty!

I ain't blind, Ratchet! Somethig's wrong! Just talk to me, goddamnit!

And what would you know?! I can go out when I want and go home when I want! I eat when I want too! You're not my parent, Rin! I've gotten along just fine without any and I don't need someone younger than me starting to act like one!

Edited 2012-06-27 06:27 (UTC)

Except I'm worried--... !

[there's a sudden stop, and a long pause, before Rin lets out a growl.]

Fine. Do what you want. Fuck off and die, I don't care anymore. 'cause you obviously don't.

[Nevermind that you're my only friend, nevermind that I felt like you were the only one who understood me--...

Rin's voice noticeably catches, but before Ratchet can say anything more the feed has disconnected.

Any attempts to reach him will be sent to voice mail automatically.]

Edited 2012-06-27 06:35 (UTC)

...Fuck off and die. Maybe I should. Done it once before.

[He turns off his own D-Comm and starts walking. Not like Rin could come find him in the Dark Area anyway.]

*Sigh* Ah that takes me back.

Yeah? How so?

Ah I had a girlfriend who sang that song once when we had this virus before. She's gone home now.

Anyway if the song is to be believed...I think you're just not looking hard enough. There's so much in this world to do!

Don't mean to burst the optimism bubble but isn't it temporary? We all just go home eventually right?

Heh...yeah well...I woulda said that too a couple of years ago. But I'm pushing four years solid of never going home even for a little bit.

Yeah but some people stay here a lot less, don't they? I'm just having a tough time seeing the optimism bandwagon here.

That's because you're focusing on what you've lost. Not what you have the possibility to gain.

Now with my girl right? She had it rough. Powers she could barely control, no family to speak of. Finds some friends she can trust right? But a misunderstanding sent her all dark side. She thinks the bad guy is someone who loves and respects her but WHAM! Betrayal. So she betrays him right back and saves the day...but dies, or as good as dead anyway.

She comes back, gets a second chance at life. pretends not to know anyone or anything from her past life and then suddenly gets sucked in here. Just when she adjusts to that right? Friends, new family, WHAM! Kidnapped and mutated into evil dinosaur by ANOTHER villain. This guy even goes a step farther and takes her emotions away.

But we saved her from that too! And she grew up to be a happy somewhat healthy girl till she got sent home.

All I'm saying is...it may seem impossible to imagine things getting better. Especially when you feel numb all over. But living in defiance of everyone and everything that wants you to just lay down and die will eventually show that there really is still things left in this world to make you smile.

...also don't EVER tell Terra I told you about all that. If she comes back and finds out I'm telling her life story she'll crush me like a bug.

I won't tell her. Guess she had a hard life. Got to respect someone who fought through all that.

But let me just ask one thing. What if there is nothing to go home to? What then?

Then you find a new home dude.

If your worlds anything like mine? There's always something bigger and better to be found.

[Ratchet opens his mouth to say something but just closes it.]

Nevermind. Thanks for the words though. I feel...a little better.

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