[anonymous] [text]

[cure_moonlight]

What do you do when...

Hn.

How do I put this...

No matter how hard you keep trying, everything turns out the wrong way?

Comments

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[scrapperzen]

It sounds to me that fighting is part of the problem.

I won't dispute that there's a time and a place for conflict... but it sure sounds as though you're getting pushed further than you need to be.

If you don't want to get into it further, all I can offer is the assurance that there are other ways. And it REALLY sounds like you need one.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[cure_moonlight]

It is not as though I am fighting because I wish it.

Not fighting... would simply mean giving up.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[scrapperzen]

Ah, forgive me. I think that my phrasing has been off the mark. Let me rephrase.

I'm not telling you to lie back and take it. I'm telling you that if your current tactics aren't working, then you need to withdraw and reexamine things, find another approach.

There are always other ways to fight.

Even pacifism is just another tactic. Sometimes, an effective one.

It's served me well on several occasions where raising a blade would have meant defeat.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[cure_moonlight]

Yes, another tactic is necessary. I just haven't figured out what that may be.

Pacifism... would not work.

It would only mean I die quicker.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[scrapperzen]

Never striking a blow is not the same as not defending yourself.

What are you trying to accomplish? Generally, I mean. You don't need to tell me any specifics.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[cure_moonlight]

I want to save the other person involved, I want to right what has been done to them.

I can save so many other people, but not those closest to me, those tied the tightest to what and who I am. I never can.

It is ... frustrating.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[scrapperzen]

And this other person... has no desire to be saved?

Or sees you as an enemy?

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[cure_moonlight]

I would suspect both are probably accurate.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[scrapperzen]

Challenging.

Not impossible.

How far are you willing to go? I have general answers for you, but... they're not easy. Not by a long shot.

Re: [Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm]

[cure_moonlight]

...I'll do what's necessary.

[Registers as Silverwing's D-Comm] [Locked now]

[scrapperzen]

Will you? If you truly desire this, then you will be putting your own life in danger. If you truly desire this, then you won't raise your weapons against this soul again.

In defense of others, or your own life? Certainly. But only to that extent.

When you have the chance to strike, you let it pass. If the choice comes down to hurting them, or letting them hurt you... You take the latter.

You try to talk, even when it falls on deaf ears. You try to understand the reasoning, even when it seems beyond all possible comprehension. Find out what you did to deserve the enmity. Find out why your words are going unheeded. Find out WHY redemption is so far beyond this person's consideration... and start fighting the causes, rather than the person.

If you fight the person, you throw away everything you're trying to accomplish. An olive branch in one hand is easy to overlook when the other hand is holding a gun, after all.

When you need help, ask for it. And you WILL need it, I know.

It's easy to do things with violence, but not so easy to turn the other cheek. If it were, you'd see more people doing it.

The name is Silverwing, by the way. As I said... when you need help, ask for it. I'll come to watch your back.